Today is my birthday which is always good for reflecting.  Once I reached a certain time in my life I decided my goal in life was to be the greatest dad ever above all else, I just want to be a father Kade is proud to have and to make decisions based around that.  Always make life for Kade better than what I had.  I didn't have a bad childhood, but I believe that is what everybody strives for.  Great thought.  Problem is that I really don't know what I'm doing.  I realize this fact daily as I try to figure out situations like how Kade can clean his room on his own and on two different occasions poop the tub with a huge smile on his face. 

This birthday i spent most of my time fixing a leak on our house.  Started with great plan, followed by many things out of my control, to where I'm at now, a leak in the roof.  A smaller leak thanks to Mr. Fix It, but still a leak.  As i watched the rain come down again and again this birthday weekend and worried about the leak and possible future issues and all that crap. I  had my reflection and a beautiful moment of happiness.  I'm losing a battle with the leak, but I'm in an amazing part of my life.  Amazing family, house, and job that allows me to enjoy it. This will hopefully, eventually be a past battle.  Just like with the roof I will just have to be a dad in the same way.  Start with a great plan, deal with many things that are out of my control, and continue on my greatest dad ever path.  I know there will be more moments in life much like while I was fixing the leak.  When the pain of my toe after slipping on the sweat that was dripping off my face in the million degree attic and stubbing my toe on a board causing me to raise up into a cactus like bed of nails that is my entire attic and feeling as many of them as possible in my back.  But I have Kade.  I have a beautiful wife and a basset hound named Boogie.  Thank you to all my family and everybody for the birthday love.  It means a lot to a kid dad that respects family above all.